a deep analysis of my inner psyche
02/14/2025
I may be a girl sitting alone making an ancient looking website on Valentine's day, but I bought a pack of oreo thins AND ice cream yesterday so I'm a winner at heart.
02/16/2025
Obviously this site is meant to be extremely deep and philosophical, so let me tell you all that I'm thinking right now. I could mention the meaning of life, why we dream, or even investigate the merits and pitfalls of human attachment. But I won't. No, today I want to talk about how much I'm craving a cheese pizza. Admittedly it's 11AM and also admittedly it's probably not healthy for someone with my BMI to house an entire pizza, but wow does the idea get my blood pumping. Anyway, reddit taught me some helpful facts about opossum this morning, so I thought I'd share.
02/26/2025
It's been brought to my attention by my sister that I have been slacking on posting on this particular page of my site. I wasn't aware there were rules when you made your own website, but apparently my audience is demanding and unruly. I'd like to talk a little today about the wonders of free-will. This is a topic we often take for granted as the autopiloted freaks we all are deep down. I for one have been trying to take special appreciation of my free will lately. When I drink coffee at 10:30 PM to finish an assignment, thank god for free will. When I just eat a can of chickpeas for lunch because I am much too lazy to cook, thank god for free will. I'm sure my sister will regret having free will later when she reads this rant she prompted. Anyway, here's hoping I recover from my daily dose of amnesia enough to talk about the article I had to read for my class. Thanks for listening losers ;)
03/27/2025
YES, it has been a month since I've updated this. My bad, what do you want a formal apology? Well screw off. Anyway my posting here now is like 25% procrastination (lie, it's actually 100%) because I have a test tomorrow. While I was studying I realized that I don't actually know how to draw the greek symbol gamma. Or, I do but I was sure there was a more correct way and that I wasn't doing it and lo and behold I was right! I love a random fact, so now I'm forcing it upon you. Have fun learning how to draw gamma! This whole time I was basically just drawing a y. Had no idea there was a loop involved.
03/28/2025
I'm considering that dilapidated restaurants are the best restaurants Picture me: green top, low rise jeans, walking into a place that is falling into the mud of a low tide stream beneath a highway. I had a Cosmo and it was delightful The lighting inside was so dark in a way that felt riddled with childhood and nostalgia. This is a love letter to the fries I had because holy hell I think I saw God.
04/23/2025
Boy oh boy was today a lot (it's 2:17 PM). If the phrase "deeply unmotivated" has a wikipedia page my picture is plastered all over it. I slept in until I woke up naturally today and promptly showered, by which I mean I lazed about in bed for a long time before I got any desire to move. Then, because who needs real happiness where you can spend all of your money for a small hit of dopamine, I got a coffee and a chipotle bowl. Sadly I feel slightly underwhelmed by both the chipotle honey chicken from Chipotle and the salted caramel cold foam from Starbucks. Other than that I've just been refraining from posting any real content on here and just reworking my organization. Thrilling. Time for my regularly scheduled tangent. I just realized I love the word underwhelmed(sorry about the non sequitur). You'd think feeling passionately about the word underwhelmed is contradictory, but I find it fascinating. Most words we have that we use to describe being not something start with un-. Duh because that's how root words work, but the use of under implies that I am slightly whelmed and I don't even care so much about whatever it is to take a strong stance on how not impacted I am by it. This may not make any sense because it is undeniably difficult to find proper language to express meaning behind words, but something about this is making my brain sigh with contentment right now so I'm going to go with it. I just think that it's nice we have a word that implies both the way something should be and the way something is. If I'm underwhelmed by a conversation you get the message that I both should have been stimulated by it and I am actively not. It conveys the perfect amount of disappointment, while also allowing me to be cooly detatched. I love it. It's also a word that doesn't really exist that much in everyday vernacular. I had a hard time thinking of a situation where I might hear someone else say it, but I don't get how people don't use the word constantly. Thanks for listening to the ramblings of a semi-reformed dictionary kid.
